Fuck

So I think you all should go fuck yourselves. I mean since you only care about yourselves that would be the perfect thing to do right? Since all of you think you are better than everyone else. Since no matter what I do I can not make any of you damned people happy. Its all want want want. Well What the Fuck, enough is enough. Everyone wants but never gives. You give too much and people walk the fuck right over you. Oh and then you have people making you feel guilty for not wanting to do something. Well I am sorry that I am not that person. I am sorry that I have tried to be that person but have failed. So why don’t you just go find that bitch who will be that person?

I am tired. I am tired of trying so hard to make people happy and getting no where. I am nothing but sad, nothing but left out, nothing at all.

How pathetic am I? I’ve gone out on two dates with this one guy and I’m going on a third soon. I don’t want to get let down, and I wish I could see him more often. Both of us are extremely busy people, who don’t have much free time though. He works, runs, etc. I have two jobs and go to school. I know I need the money, especially now, since I got a ticket haha. Go me. I am pleading not guilty though, partially because I really wasnt speeding as much as he thought I was. He didn’t give me a deposition so I asked for one. If I don;t get one the ticket gets dropped. The cop was really nice though and told me to plead not guilty. He told me it would probably be dropped to a moving violation. Which I think is only 2 points on my licence which has 0 points right now. I’ll take a defensive driving course to make sure my insurance doesn’t start sucking. I’ll actually have to sign up for my own health insurance soon. I’ll probably give my parents money for my phone and car insurance because I don’t and I feel like I should. 75 a month probably because she originally wanted 50 a while ago.

Well I am super excited for friday. I hope it goes well. Maybe we shall have a fourth date haha

I now realise how little you care. I’ll try to not care at all.

Saturday

I am going to a photo studio. He told me he would show me how everything works! I am excited! He also told me what cameras are good and I am going to get one soon! I am just watching craigslist to see if anything pps up before I drop 650 on a camera ahahaha! Im really bad at writing so most of these will be short.

Why does it hurt me when you dont talk to me? Ive shot you down so many times, and it hurts me to not talk to you, or when you dont talk to me. Sometimes I sit there waiting for you to say something. Sometimes Ill wait up until you go to sleep just to talk to you. I’ve said some things before when I was angry. Some things I did not mean. I still care and hurt.

Hm

I am sad? I am weird? Idk weird mood, go me!

New things

I am hoping Tops calls me and gives me a job in the bakery department! I wanna bake and get a new job. Then I can transfer, work two jobs, and see Casey, and perhaps take statistics at GCC over the summer!

If they are going to make ppl who have been there shorter than me , higher up than me, I am done.

Im messed

Kurt Halsey

http://www.kurthalsey.com/

freakin heck yes! I WILL own that bird bag!

So I check everyday.

Tehe